Monday, July 13, 2009
yay =D
getting back your results is very depressing.
Labels: randomness at its greatest, school issues
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
AGI
Exceptionally depressing to know that AGI 2009 has been cancelled due to H1N1.
I probably would not have cared much if was in other years, as much as I like to attend AGI.
But this year it's different.
So sad.
I probably would not have cared much if was in other years, as much as I like to attend AGI.
But this year it's different.
So sad.
i want you back at 7:48 PM
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009
First Times in OTC
Taking time off the silly online e-learning which has evidently failed to do some blogging.
Sunday's OTC Theory Day 2 had a lot of First Times for me.
First Time having an in-depth chat 1-to-1 with an officer
I was asked to lunch together with William Sir because I wanted to seek comments on how I fared for in my role as a CCC. Originally I didn't particularly enjoy the idea of talking over lunch. In school, for example, I don't meet teachers up privately for consultation. I sometimes say it is because I do not want to give others trouble, but I think it's more of I'm not exactly that willing to "hang-out" too much with people that I don't know so well.
However I'm glad that I went. He managed to give me a lot more ideas on what SJAB and OTC is about, and gave me some insights into what I did and my working styles. It was comforting to speak with someone who understands where I am coming from and the troubles I am facing, and he even took the effort to analyse the situation zone by zone, seemingly comforting me that I'm not the only one facing such a problem.
Returned to course late in the end. Like really late.
First Time receiving a comforting sms from a girl
That's probably the difference between a Boys' School and a Co-Ed school.
In boys' schools people aren't exactly that willing to express their emotions openly. Either it gets a little too mushy or people will suspect that you are gay with the other guy.
Tingting Ma'am's sms gave me a pretty sweet feeling, even though whatever that happened did not really affect me, and I probably did not really hear what they said anyway.
But still people like to hear nice words, and especially when I'm often considered pretty "out-of-place" in the Zone, it's nice to know that people do care.
To whoever may be concerned, I'm great. Seriously :)
First Time being fed by a girl
Fine, a girl again. But seriously consider the fact that I have been in a Boys' school across my Secondary School life, being fed by ANYONE, especially a girl, is... different?
Apparently Maisarah "Ayuni" doesn't particularly enjoy chocolate cake. So I got "force-fed". Haha.
But I have always liked sharing food. Because sharing food means that it doesn't matter between You and Me. But being fed is very pampering! =D
First Time running LIKE THAT in the rain
AGI Reccee was a whole lot of fun. Not because the job is like so fantastic, but because of the people that really mattered. It was especially nice when everyone just dashed across the roads in the rain with bags and a uniform cover. No one complained. And everyone was doing it for one common cause: because AGI really mattered, even though it's probably on the verge of being cancelled.
I think this year's AGI matters a lot for me. Because Zone is marching as GOH this year, and I'm one of the GOH Trainers. Because my school is getting SAA, first among only 5 schools across Singapore. Because I'm in AGI Comm. Because because because...
To me, AGI had never been simply an attendance-taking session. Evidently. Especially since I went back in Sec 4 as a Colours Escort even though I have already passed out from the Corps. I take pride in AGI, as much as it's sian, because I like the feeling of seeing everyone in Uniform at Serangoon Stadium. It gives a heartwarming feeling for family. Of course this feeling really differs from reality, but at least there's still like some hope to see that people still bother to come down. Maybe for the CAA, but whatever.
SO, lots of First Times in OTC =)
Sunday's OTC Theory Day 2 had a lot of First Times for me.
First Time having an in-depth chat 1-to-1 with an officer
I was asked to lunch together with William Sir because I wanted to seek comments on how I fared for in my role as a CCC. Originally I didn't particularly enjoy the idea of talking over lunch. In school, for example, I don't meet teachers up privately for consultation. I sometimes say it is because I do not want to give others trouble, but I think it's more of I'm not exactly that willing to "hang-out" too much with people that I don't know so well.
However I'm glad that I went. He managed to give me a lot more ideas on what SJAB and OTC is about, and gave me some insights into what I did and my working styles. It was comforting to speak with someone who understands where I am coming from and the troubles I am facing, and he even took the effort to analyse the situation zone by zone, seemingly comforting me that I'm not the only one facing such a problem.
Returned to course late in the end. Like really late.
First Time receiving a comforting sms from a girl
That's probably the difference between a Boys' School and a Co-Ed school.
In boys' schools people aren't exactly that willing to express their emotions openly. Either it gets a little too mushy or people will suspect that you are gay with the other guy.
Tingting Ma'am's sms gave me a pretty sweet feeling, even though whatever that happened did not really affect me, and I probably did not really hear what they said anyway.
But still people like to hear nice words, and especially when I'm often considered pretty "out-of-place" in the Zone, it's nice to know that people do care.
To whoever may be concerned, I'm great. Seriously :)
First Time being fed by a girl
Fine, a girl again. But seriously consider the fact that I have been in a Boys' school across my Secondary School life, being fed by ANYONE, especially a girl, is... different?
Apparently Maisarah "Ayuni" doesn't particularly enjoy chocolate cake. So I got "force-fed". Haha.
But I have always liked sharing food. Because sharing food means that it doesn't matter between You and Me. But being fed is very pampering! =D
First Time running LIKE THAT in the rain
AGI Reccee was a whole lot of fun. Not because the job is like so fantastic, but because of the people that really mattered. It was especially nice when everyone just dashed across the roads in the rain with bags and a uniform cover. No one complained. And everyone was doing it for one common cause: because AGI really mattered, even though it's probably on the verge of being cancelled.
I think this year's AGI matters a lot for me. Because Zone is marching as GOH this year, and I'm one of the GOH Trainers. Because my school is getting SAA, first among only 5 schools across Singapore. Because I'm in AGI Comm. Because because because...
To me, AGI had never been simply an attendance-taking session. Evidently. Especially since I went back in Sec 4 as a Colours Escort even though I have already passed out from the Corps. I take pride in AGI, as much as it's sian, because I like the feeling of seeing everyone in Uniform at Serangoon Stadium. It gives a heartwarming feeling for family. Of course this feeling really differs from reality, but at least there's still like some hope to see that people still bother to come down. Maybe for the CAA, but whatever.
SO, lots of First Times in OTC =)
Labels: OTC, randomness at its greatest, sjab
i want you back at 9:05 AM
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
AHHHH
I totally have like no idea why am I back here within like less than an hour from my last post.
But my morale is like at all-time low and I have 0 motivation to touch anything related to my studies except maybe GP or CSC. And PW.
I especially hasn't paid any attention to my Chemistry and Econs. Fortuantely I took the time to try and touch my math, with minimal success. Like near-0 minimal.
I cannot take all the stuff that is coming in now. The panic is setting in and I know very well if I don't start NOW, I'm going to screw my Blocks really bad.
And I know the school will probably suspend me from CCA. Means no Persada Juara Tari for me. Maybe even no OTC for me. Which is no-no.
I have to start working but given my mental stability now, No.
Maybe I should go sleep and wake up early tomorrow.
PLANS for tomorrow:
Finish 2 Econs stuff and SUBMIT.
Touch Integration (I seemed to have lost all my concepts on differentiation. I must be going mad.)
I really must hook myself OFF facebook, MSN and stuff. I can't stay this way for long.
AHHHH I hate myself.
But my morale is like at all-time low and I have 0 motivation to touch anything related to my studies except maybe GP or CSC. And PW.
I especially hasn't paid any attention to my Chemistry and Econs. Fortuantely I took the time to try and touch my math, with minimal success. Like near-0 minimal.
I cannot take all the stuff that is coming in now. The panic is setting in and I know very well if I don't start NOW, I'm going to screw my Blocks really bad.
And I know the school will probably suspend me from CCA. Means no Persada Juara Tari for me. Maybe even no OTC for me. Which is no-no.
I have to start working but given my mental stability now, No.
Maybe I should go sleep and wake up early tomorrow.
PLANS for tomorrow:
Finish 2 Econs stuff and SUBMIT.
Touch Integration (I seemed to have lost all my concepts on differentiation. I must be going mad.)
I really must hook myself OFF facebook, MSN and stuff. I can't stay this way for long.
AHHHH I hate myself.
Labels: randomness at its greatest, rantings
i want you back at 12:14 AM
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
GAHH
AGAIN another day spent without touching my books!
I must be mad,
trying to kill myself hur?
Living in absolute denial doesn't mean that I will pass my blocks with flying colours.
I need to realise that time is running short and my final week is almost up.
Guess what?
I really feel that I can't be more bothered.
But I know that this isn't what I want my JC life to be.
WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP.
起来起来起来!
WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!
I must be mad,
trying to kill myself hur?
Living in absolute denial doesn't mean that I will pass my blocks with flying colours.
I need to realise that time is running short and my final week is almost up.
Guess what?
I really feel that I can't be more bothered.
But I know that this isn't what I want my JC life to be.
WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP.
起来起来起来!
WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!
Labels: randomness at its greatest, rantings
i want you back at 11:52 PM
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
This is SJAB.
It was emotional.
As much as I want to say how great the camp was and how terrific the training had been and how I think it really defined us so much so, enough people have done it already.
Everyone was impressed with the camp. I, myself, am very glad that I am part of this year's OTC because it really proved what substance it was meant to be all these years.
Yet things are not always perfect, and what was emotional wasn't about all these team bonding and perseverance and "It's all in the Mind".
That day when I-forgot-who mentioned OOC to November, I remember I was totally stunned. Despite being on parade, I turned my head to Melissa beside, who nodded promptly.
It's the kind of feeling where you and your friend pledged to move on together, yet halfway through the railways broke and both of ou went on separate paths. It didn't feel good.
When I came home after camp I found the time to chat with Rita. I think it really cleared things up and made me undestand the situation more logically, and think through what this whole issue really is about.
Yes, OTC is good. But what good does it make if only one small mini tiny component of the Brigade is good when everything else isn't?
We are one Brigade isn't it?
Why is it so difficult to communicate and compromise?
Hence it becomes even more important for people like us to move on into the Brigade.
P.S. I heard from Rita that she was pulled out of AGI Committee. Judging from statistics I guess that makes me sort of her "replacement". I have to make it good.
As much as I want to say how great the camp was and how terrific the training had been and how I think it really defined us so much so, enough people have done it already.
Everyone was impressed with the camp. I, myself, am very glad that I am part of this year's OTC because it really proved what substance it was meant to be all these years.
Yet things are not always perfect, and what was emotional wasn't about all these team bonding and perseverance and "It's all in the Mind".
That day when I-forgot-who mentioned OOC to November, I remember I was totally stunned. Despite being on parade, I turned my head to Melissa beside, who nodded promptly.
It's the kind of feeling where you and your friend pledged to move on together, yet halfway through the railways broke and both of ou went on separate paths. It didn't feel good.
When I came home after camp I found the time to chat with Rita. I think it really cleared things up and made me undestand the situation more logically, and think through what this whole issue really is about.
Yes, OTC is good. But what good does it make if only one small mini tiny component of the Brigade is good when everything else isn't?
We are one Brigade isn't it?
Why is it so difficult to communicate and compromise?
Hence it becomes even more important for people like us to move on into the Brigade.
P.S. I heard from Rita that she was pulled out of AGI Committee. Judging from statistics I guess that makes me sort of her "replacement". I have to make it good.
i want you back at 5:00 PM
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Friday, June 12, 2009
Camp again! 2
Off for camp again!
This time round I've got to "un-learn" my identity as a trainer, and revert back to being a simple, tekan-ed trainee again =)
Met up with OTC peeps yesterday to discuss for campfire item. It's great that at least the few of us now actually work quite well together, and we sorta had lots of fun trying to do like 爱你 and Nobody yesterday XD
This is the group of people that i will be "STUCK" with for the next few days, in addition to a few more Sundays and events for the next few months. So let's not start getting tired of each other shall we?
Anticipating the camp... Supposedly rumoured to be really physically and mentally tough but that's really up to different viewpoints. Let's just hope it will be an effective and meaningful one.
This time round I've got to "un-learn" my identity as a trainer, and revert back to being a simple, tekan-ed trainee again =)
Met up with OTC peeps yesterday to discuss for campfire item. It's great that at least the few of us now actually work quite well together, and we sorta had lots of fun trying to do like 爱你 and Nobody yesterday XD
This is the group of people that i will be "STUCK" with for the next few days, in addition to a few more Sundays and events for the next few months. So let's not start getting tired of each other shall we?
Anticipating the camp... Supposedly rumoured to be really physically and mentally tough but that's really up to different viewpoints. Let's just hope it will be an effective and meaningful one.
i want you back at 10:29 AM
0 on-lookers thought having you back was easy
0 on-lookers thought having you back was easy
